Dreams,

Exams are coming to invade Earth.
Day by day, students are busy preparing themselves to face the truth.
Oh Allah, please save them. And myself.

I am neither prepared mentally nor physically (whtthfck?) to answer those questions.
Am I;
(a) Scared?
(b) Petrified?
(c) Nervous?
(d) All of the above?

D, of course.
There aren't any words in the Oxford Dictionary or Kamus Dewan that can possibly describe how I feel this very moment.
*opens the dictionary
Well, maybe there are a few that are quite close, For example;
- partly obtuse -my mind's empty, quite. takes time to understand and get the facts straight, a lot of it
- famished (apakah?) -i'm holding it in, perhaps you should ask amie why, haha

I've been having those Dreams again, but this time it was different.
It felt real.

That monstrous being was running around,shouting, trying to find my friend. She hid in a room, in the back of a house. Screaming helplessly.
When it saw me, it hit my head against the wall, causing this head of mine to bleed.
Panic struck the core of my heart. What will happen? What should I do?
I was screaming for help, but was disappointed, for no one came to the rescue. Pathetic. Helpless.
In that Dream, I had blamed myself for forgetting to lock the doors in that house. I felt useless.

Quite freaky, it was.
I woke up, glancing at the screen of my phone, i realized that it was just 6.00 a.m. on the dot. Sweating, I tried to convince myself that it was all just a Dream.
I cried, honestly.
It was hard to believe.
I just hate having Dreams like those.
And I just remembered, that night, I accidentally forgot to recite my prayers beforehand.
I kept reminding myself that Allah just wanted to teach me a lesson, not wanting me to forget Him.
Even during bad or good times.
Unfortunately, in the back of my head, a voice said that some Dreams do come true. Is that possible?
I'd hate for this one to come to life.
I'd hate myself.
Ohh Allah, please help me.

Realising the fact that I'm changing constantly, I should keep in mind that those changes might even affect the way my future would be like.
I am no longer the Old Me, I am the New Me. Accept that.
And it's my responsibility to make myself a better person, inside and out.

Don't think of what people say about you, it is not them who are living Your life.
Don't do things just for the sake of Doing them, do them because you Should.
Don't think you're the lowest of the Low, there are others who think They are lower.
Don't say things that you don't Really mean, only say what's meant to be said.
And don't assume you are facing even Bigger problems than others, there might be some who are dealing with the Worst.

-unknown-

Just a Dream? I wish with all my heart that it will remain as it is.